I've never thought it could be this way..
Today I saw all my life in one moment.
It's a butterfly effect
I am crazy now . already.
if I'll keep my clear sanity till 20 years this will be good.
All of my faces,the faces,I've seen.
Thousands of them. thousands of miles,of thoughts,songs ,tears ,fears,doubts,smiles..
[I never thought it could be this way]
my hands are shaking now
I never thought it could be this way!!!!!!!!!
I don't need anyone . just leave me in peace.
I hate your world
I hate all of my obsessions[there were no obsessions]
I don't need your world.
It's senseless . It's unfair.It's disgusting .
I hate your games[I hate my games]
I've fucked up other people's brains.
I want to quit this game[this time]
Let me out
[let go]
::open your eyes wide::
Open your eyes wide and you'll see how many beauty and godness have our lives.
but then:
Open your eyes wider,and you'll see ,how many messes,despairs,tears,deathes,unjustice and cruelness have our fuckin' lives
13 march 2004