This time I'm gonna kill myself;
This time I'm gonna visit hell;
This time I'm gonna make you cry;
This time I'm gonna learn to die.

This time nobody will disturb;
This time I'll go beyond the curbs;
This time I will invent my style;
This time I'm gonna learn to die.

This time I'm gonna break the rules;
This time I'll change my life for truth;
This time I'll close my eager eyes;
This time I'm gonna learn to die.

This time it's hard to leave this world;
This time I fear this freezing cold;
This time I'll wear my scary smile;
This time I just don't want to die.

This time I can't decide:
What I should do - to live or die?
I don't know how to stay alive,
I can't unsee my own demise.